A Thought of a Melancholy Heart

And when I looked into the abyss

It’s there that my mind is at peace

And through its deep hole of nothingness

It’s where my heart truly aches

My pain mirrors a smile

The laughter echoes a cry

The dance hides a brokenheart

of a spirit wanting to die

I live outside of you, I live within me

Sometimes, I wanted to be inside, it's where I am free

I often wonder who holds the more strength –

Is it the one who continues living but is dying inside,

Or is it the one who has the strength to end his life?

I am religious and it’s the only thing that keeps me from cutting the rope

God is my refuge and strength but I don’t know until when I can hold